Last week a member of our church family died from cancer. Our church family had fought like an army of prayer warriors, believing that God would heal her. Yet we’ve lost her from this earthly domain, she’s been called home to be with our Father.
I didn’t know Nix well, but had found her faithfulness throughout her drawn-out battle with the illness, inspiring and I know she’s in a better place now. However, the gap between knowing that and feeling that, truly understanding it, will be like a chasm for some of us right now. How can this be God’s will for her and her family? I simply do not know, nor cannot fathom.
“My thoughts are not your thoughts and my ways are not your ways…” (Is 55:8) Isaiah reminds us that God does not think the way we do, and knows infinitely more than we can imagine. Paul writes that we see only through a glass darkly, “For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known” (1 Cor 3:12) . He recognises that while we’re living our earthly lives, we only see a glimpse of the Kingdom of God, of His great plan.
Yet as Christians, we see the light at the end of the tunnel. Believing in Jesus means that there is life for us beyond our earthly existence. “…whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” (John 3:16)
We may not be able to (fully?) understand God’s will – He calls us to trust Him in all circumstances. When His will goes against our wants, hopes and desires, what becomes so important is how we perceive God’s will and how we respond, when our dreams are shattered.
How we respond to God in the aftermath of such a loss as losing a loved one (and that battle itself) is as important as how we sought him for the miracle of her healing. We have choices now: How we let him heal us, how we ask him to show us the pain each one of us is feeling at the loss of a faithful member of our Christian family. How we show each other love and compassion will be evidence of God’s glory as we seek and worship him.
A few years ago a young friend of mine died suddenly in a tragic accident. I still can’t explain God’s will for that, particularly for him and his family, but I do know what happened next in the lives of those who knew him, following our loss. Our bonds as a community became stronger, our compassion for one another became more evident. We each made decisions about the direction our lives were taking us. We all made choices to live, and not to accept things that weren’t right or held no joy. We still miss him, but because of the relationships that formed after his death, he’s still a part of our lives. Losing him made us experience love in new ways.
Our faith community, our church – is a family. The broken world is a place of loss. God invites us to come to him for the sustenance we need to keep going; for the love we need each day in order to survive the world’s brokenness. Right now many of that family are feeling that brokenness cut into their souls.
How do we glorify God when life hurts? In our times of hurt and dismay, feeling loss, lost and let down, Jesus is here, waiting for us to come to him. He wants to heal our hurts and in so, our Father will be glorified.
My heart goes out to Nix’s family and friends, who’ve had someone they loved so dearly taken away from them. If you’re reading this, please think of them or remember them in your prayers.